特演(Special Presentation)

Dear diary,

Nowadays, I’ve been so busy (seriously!), since this week, we must report our experiment progress, but it doesn’t a big deal compare to the other one, tokuen (特演). I don’t know the right meaning of tokuen, but in general it means that special presentation.

What’s so special? It isn’t final presentation for graduation. I don’t know, but the atmosphere in here (read: all the first year master degree in my department) seems so stressed up. It effects me a lot, and now it seems like someone or something give pressure to us, to read so many journal that (or might a little bit) related to your experiment. Then you make a good STORY of it then presented in front of the people of your department.

I told you once more, GOOD STORY. Yes it is. Making a good story actually is not a diffucult matter. I mean, you can make a good story about your holiday, right? But making a good story about someone-out-there research and I-don’t-have-any-idea method they used, it’s not an easy thing at all.

For me, to understand a journal, it takes times. I have to read at least twice of same journal to know the idea. And know, I must read at least 15 journal and mix it into a good good story. Congratulations!

But…., I should feel lucky, because my Sensei allowed me to make a good story and presentation in english. It helps a lot. Because, if I make a presentation and paper in Japanese, then it is a check mate! Of course the sun will not shine over me again (okay, now I’m going to be a drama queen again). But yes, if he told me to do in Japanese, I might spend all my days in front of the computer with google translate and excite website open up and busy translating from english journal into a good story in Japanese. I can’t imagine that. So, in this context, I should thank to Sensei.

Tomorrow, I will let Sensei check my draft paper for tokuen. Honestly, I feel so worried and scared. I don’t know. Because every previous work I’ve done, and I showed to Sensei, the response weren’t good at all. I always made some mistakes and often it ended up with Sensei being mad at me. Now, I’m very scared another previous sad scenario happen again, and tomorrow, I hope it won’t happen. Really really hope for that…

Bismillahirrahmannirrahim…

 

Cheers!

Nilna Amelia

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