Miracle happens

Dear diary,

It’s been a year since I did the reseach. A year without significant result. I was afraid if I couldn’t manage it, then I couldn’t graduate next year. If it happens, then my plans will be messy. Honestly, I was tired, tired with no result, tired to do same experiments all day without knowing it will be success or not.

But then, I though, maybe because of my negative thinking that this experiments will be no result, then it came with no result.

So, I changed my way of thinking.

It will be a great result, just believe it, and then miracle will happen.

I remember a day when I was in Siaware, a training to motivate yourself. A mentor told to us that if you keep thinking that you can achieve something with your heart, then the universe will collaborate to make you achieve it.

And yes, with a collaboration of my work, pray, I know that God tell the universe to make my experiment run well.

I was surprised when I see three beautiful peaks as the result of my extraction, then when I calculated it, I made it! I made 88% extraction! Alhamdulillah, after one year with extraction result below 50%, now it became 80% more.

I saw my Sensei smiling, satisfied. And he said that I can go to the next step of experiments.

I know that, it’s only beginning. Beginning of my great experiments. Although it’s a bit late, I know somehow I can get what I want, I can achieve it, as long as I keep trying, praying, and thinking positively.



Nilna Amelia


Dear diary Just a moment ago my senior…

Dear diary,

Just a moment ago, my senior asked me why I don’t take spring break, like the others. Well, I have many many reasons behind that, such as:

1. I didn’t notice before that master program student has spring break. So, I don’t know this week and next week is spring break #poorme

2. I already went back to Indonesia, and if I take more two weeks holiday, I will be so greedy, moreover it will cost looooots of money for holiday (actually I was shocked when I see my credit card’s bill for next month).

3. Mention that so many radiation issues out there, and considering about all of my family worries. It’s better for me not to take holiday out of town.

4. Well, I made so many carelessness when I did solo travelling. I think someone will get angry again if I make same mistakes. Sorry, dear. I don’t mean to make you worry >.<

5. The most IMPORTANT reasons is……………….. I haven’t got good data for my theses, and I only have one year less to get some data and make my theses. So, I must keep doing my experiments, because time won’t wait for me and I don’t want to regret it when March 2012 comes.

So, here I am. In the bioprocess lab, with some two post-doc students, one technician, one assistant of my advisor, and one of undergraduate student who graduated last March and soon to be Master Student (long explanation, I know).

My wishlist this April: I could get some of good data. Amiieeen….



Nilna Amelia

Dear diary Nowadays I kept thinking how to…

Dear diary,

Nowadays I kept thinking how to met my nephew in Germany, then a new idea just popped up! I will make a new target this year which is……..

1. Get a good data in my experiment

2. Make a report, and submit it to international conference in Germany

3. Go to Germany for international conference and then, spend a little time to visit my nephew.

Bremerhaven, Germany

Great idea, isn’t it? If I could fulfill this target, then I made three achivements

1. Have an international confrence

2. Have a data to my thesis

3. Go to Europe, free!

Hope I can! I MUST!!! Now or never!!!!


Nilna Amelia


Dear diary,

When I took a bath this night, suddenly a calculation of my data popped up in my head. I don’t know, why in such a relax time, I kept remember all my experiments in this week. I know, the result (still) isn’t good, and it kept haunting me.

Because there’s only one year left to graduate, which means one year left to get a good data from ZERO.

I made quick calculation after take a bath. And…, just like I thought, the result is extremely far from what I hope.

I stared for couple of minutes, hoped that I did miscalculation or another excuse. But result is result, can’t be changed.

I don’t want to give up.

I don’t want whining

I don’t want to think that all these days experiments was worthless

All I want that somehow in a really really good timing, I will get good data. And I hope until that day come, I still have my fighting spirit burning in my chest.


That’s my promise today, until I graduate. Bismillahirrahmanirrahim…



Nilna Amelia